Cancer Doctor

Thursday Jan 10th I went to the Cancer Dr. in OKC for my 1 year check up. Actually it has been 1 year 14 days since the surgery. I showed her my latest blood test results and she said everything is great and wonderful!
     I was talking to the doctor and said just think a year ago my husband didn't think I was going to get to go home. The Dr. said ..... "yes after what I did to you you were not getting around to good." I told her yes and all those good drugs didn't help on that matter. She said she was sure glad I was moving around. ( I keep imagining taking out the insides putting everything on a table or just moving everything over to be able root around and find all the cancer. ) She said last year that there were times she didn't think she would be able to get to a area then it would just open up so she could.
     Now think about that..... the Dr. said "after what she did to me!" Doesn't sound like she was very confident of my recovery either. 
    Now I try not to make a big deal out of stuff usually. All this last year everyone including husband and several relatives that was waiting during the surgery told me it wasn't a good thing at all. I can't imagine what they were thinking when the operation took 3 hours longer than what was expected. Some of them even told me the nurses were really worried and taking extra good care of me. Hubby has told me several times during the year I was lucky to be alive! I don't remember much afterwards. I know that my daughter came to see me I think the next day and had to step out in the hall and tell the nurses I was coding. I just remember a bunch of people coming in at one time and that's it. I asked what the heck happened after that and she said basically they just loaded me up with ativan. No wonder I don't remember anything ! LOL Everything after that was a blurr until about Jan 8th when I got to go home. They kept trying to put me in some kind of nursing facility thinking I wouldn't be able to cope at home. I don't know why all I know is hubby called and told me I HAVE TO GET UP AND WALK AROUND if I want to go home ! Believe me..... it wasn't a easy task at all after getting gutted with a 12'' incision and being drugged for days and days. They tried helping me walking around down the hall but it must have been like getting a drunk to walk a straight line. I didn't impress them at all. LOL
      I don't know what normal recovery is like after a surgery like that. No clue, but evidently I was way far away from normal. They say ignorance is bliss and I guess I am proof in this case. I had no clue how bad off I was. All I know is I had to get through it. That's it. You do what you have to do at that moment. I do know I made up for lost time when I did get home. The nurse said I healed up at least 2 weeks quicker than her other patients with that incision and she had some that didn't heal completely for 2 yrs! She was in tears when she saw how well I healed. I told her God, Hubby waiting on me hand and foot, eating 60 grams? of protein a day lots of good vitamins and laying in this recliner as much as possible!
    Now we know why God sent me a protection detail of Angels surrounding the operating table. It was a rough operation. Why all my ancestors were there I don't know but I guess they just needed to be there. 
   Speaking of God. I felt a hand on my right  shoulder all the way to the doctors appointment Thursday and for a hour afterwards. I told him while your there why don't you fix that messed up shoulder. LOL 
   I asked the Dr. if other people encounter talking to dead people after a operation like that. I told her I have had people put in my path with loved ones that have died and I can connect with them and give them messages " ? ". I get tears and hugs and thank you's afterwards. I never know when it's going to happen. She said no but your special. LOL  now that can be taken a couple of different ways but lets just take it I'm not completely goofy ! LOL
    So 2019 is starting out much better than 2018 did! This year not only am I on the right side of the grass the weather is so much better! Last year hubby was having to take care of the ranch in below 0* temps all by himself and worry about me. This year it's just a wet muddy mess but I can help when needed. I spent the first 6 months recovering completely. Last year was just sooooo hard...... With my surgery, hubby had health issues... he had anxiety so bad it looked like Parkinson's with all that shaking going on when stressed even a little. Then we also decided to try and retire. To actually sell the ranch we have been doing for many years. Lots of emotional stress and physical stress. But like I said this year is starting out better. I am doing good. Hubby is doing soooo much better. We had made the decision to retire and now we can accept that easier. It's just a matter of time now and paperwork. 

Love
Ranchmama 
(Glad God thinks it's worth keeping me around )